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Tuesday, August 26, 2008
I seriously dunoe where to begin. It hurts like a thousand times more from every ignorance that comes. Not sure wat haf gone wrong, was it me? or juz u? Even if it was me, u told me u were forgiving, contrarily u seem to be magnifying it juz like how a telescope does. U enlarge it within u, reminding urself, and ur actions, reminded me. Or were juz trying to put it to an end? Initially wen u had it started, i dun even noe e existence. Finally when realisation kicks in, so abruptly, it has ended. It is cursed, i am cursed. Iz like a part of me that if i take it out, it'll no longer be me anymore, bt y me? I do not wish the end to come, so i'm willing to step on my pride, look like a clown, a fool to u, juz 4 a few perfunctory courtesy responses, juz to ease a tiny bit of a whole sea of hurt. The result of ur apathy is me being a fool. The fool cant quit being foolish. Well then serve the fool right. I'm a darn good actress, but i'd much rather be a director. Kind directors, they dun write cruel endings, which often is, the reality.
Friday, July 18, 2008
You give me hopes, encouragement, care, concern, everything that is needed for me 2 move forward and face obstacles. juz by reading them lits me up and warms my heart. it doesnt seem particularly extraordinary 2 u, it does alot to me. and wen all are hopeful and happy, you push me right off the cliff leaving me to bleed to death where my heart almost stop beating just because you thought it is realli ok to do so. i seem like another joke 2 u. i worked hard and had how many late night slps juz to do all that plus doing that e whole day at work, in front of all colleagues and managers and channel heads, risking my job just to complete it, all i get is "u r a mess"... n expectedly to pick up my own "messes" without any help, also putting up with my usual happi n cheery front with a smile saying iz all my fault, wen on e other side, i'm facing much stress from zero sales and bottom sales of every month, as well as juggling with, well, the usual. i had 2 choose 2 do all that cos iz either i do e least or e most, i choose e latter. u probably do nt know, thinking i'm gg slacking off shopping again. because i dun tink u need 2 know all of that n u do nt let me know urs either. u juz assumes. n i thot, i could trust u 2 b a gd fren, n wen tt happens, i haf hopes, bt nv fulfilled, bcos all i get is disappointment all over. it juz seems so insignificant, n on e surface, it all looks nuthin at all, bt deep inside, i tell u, i'm hurt... realli hurt... n all i look forward is onli a gd frenship... anw iz all gonna b over soon, n i dun tink dere's eva a need 4 me 2 face u again... n now i can onli say 2 u,
Goodbye.
*silent tears*
Sunday, June 08, 2008
life haf been so so so busy, i hardly haf time for blogging, thou i do haf time 2 look at certain pple's blog whom i'm very concerned wif... i shant say who here... tt particular person juz start nt too long ago n i've been faithfully readin it in secret, everyday... n readin it sumtimes realli makes my heart break... e kind of helplessness i gt wen i can do nuthin at all 2 help or make tinks beta, i onli sit n watch... n sumtimes it realli it makes me feel like, super sad... still, i muz read... or would i rather nt haf found tt out? haiz...
ok i shall talk about life nw... iz like super busy n hectic as usual, n tis time i dunoe iz age catching up or wat but i get v tired too easily... juz running 2 apps in 1 day can almost like finish me off... n nt 2 mention, i run them on heels n super uncomfy formal attire carrying 1 bloody laptop n another bag wif heavy docs... i din noe hw i manage 2 survive thru all tt, i'm truly amazed.. n fyi, i DID NOT take cab... life evolves mostly ard work n study n of course my youth grp n religion, thou as every1 noes i'm alwaz in e busy state, i get busy w/o losing myself... but now, i realli m... i feel i no longer noe wat i'm doing n y m i doing all tt... iz all these numbness tt takes over me n i basically dun feel much anymore... luckily i still can feel me losing myself... to all these busyness... i no longer hear wat my spiritual n mental heart n soul wans/says, i juz go whereva i'm suppose 2 b according 2 my planner, 2 my heart's wishes, do tinks my human heart enjoys, get wateva as it wishes, n tt's about it... i noe i cant go on like tt, i'm nt being who i realli m but according 2 wat my surroundings needs me 2 b...
ok 2 b more precise, my work expects alot from my appearance... n 2 accommodate tt expectation, i dunoe, alot of pple tell me i changed alot on hw i look nw, izzit a gd tink?? nw i focus i tink a little too much on it... i'm afraid iz gonna bcum obsession 1 day... i'm so afraid... bcos i cant walk out 2 work if i look at e mirror n i'm nt satisfied anymore, unless we're talkin bout gg my religion/youth grp... tt's e onli time i'm almost back 2 myself... n alotta other stuff la... but appearance is 1 major 1... my attitude n everytink... i dunoe, i'm confused, i cant tink properly e way i used 2 tink like last time anymore... i feel like a living dead n there seems no end to it... i need help but i do not noe where 2 get it... i noe i need 2 make an sos call 2 God, but sumhw i dun seem 2 get e right number... or did i nt try hard enuff? many tinks happened ard me tt isnt right, i noe, but i juz sat n stared... there is a voice in me tt shouts at me 2 get into action, but e activate button seems faulty... i need 2 get 2 e repair centre... i pray hard it will b workin v soon...
Friday, March 21, 2008
i realli dunoe wat e heck m i doing here at tis time wen i'm suppose 2 b revising HI exam for coming sat n validation on mon n sch's HRM exam on thurs... i'm juz so so so tired wif all e papers n everytink n miraclously, i dun haf 2 c dear old doc due 2 any stress symptoms... i prayed realli hard to God to let me pull thru all these "crap"... n i did... almost... cos iz almost coming 2 an end now... *i hope*... n after getting my pay yest n a free cool lookin fujitsu lifebook wif lousy IE n no MSN last wk, i realli wonder is wat i've gone thru worth onli tis?? if it isnt, y m i still on it?? or if every1 or mainly me, haf 2 work so hard 4 it, isnt it suppose 2 b tt dere muz b sumtink gd at e end of it such tt it makes everytink worth?? mayb i'm juz not dere yet 2 c results... actually alot of pple did sympathize wif me, alot... cl n wk realli pei fu me how i manage 2 juggle everytink... seriously, i dunoe, i can onli say lmcb, everytink is in place nice n gd... except my eyes r getting blacker according 2 ed... tt's so sad cos i nv had dark rings under my eyes tt lasted more den half a day... n now, i dunoe wat e heck... hope it will go back 2 normal after e hell training... but bad news is tt, after tis training will b private training wif manager readi, for 2-3wks! we'll onli b c ing custs 1 mth later... i'm realli disappointed... n dey were saying u muz b tis n that n tis n that b4 u can roll out(go out 2 meet pple n sell)... n they keep saying roll out roll out, i keep having a picture of samson holding e office door open for us n we juz start lying on e floor n rolling outta e office... haha... tt's y everytime they say roll out i realli wanna laugh cos tis pic comes 2 my head straightaway... okok getting lamer... sorry la v long nv meet my darlins readi tt's y not v rite in e brain... v sad... well tt shld b all for now, n pls help me pray i clear all my papers smoothly... i'll b praying e hardest thou... i noe God will get me thru tis soon n wat i muz do is cling on 2 my faith in God tight, cos God will nv let go, neither will i... gan en gan en...
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
i tink tis is e worst of e worst subjects i eva took, m5 n m9 plus a yet to come HI... i realli doubt i'm gonna pull thru it w/o bcuming a freak especially wen i have practically no frenz, no lunch partners, no1 2 talk 2 at all... mayb it wun b so hard if i had frenz dere... n wif all tt, plus fear of not making e m5 n m9 paper n having 2 pay if i flunk dem... plus my degree course's proj n upcoming exam... plus e planning n books i need 2 read... i've nv been so hardworkin so unwillingly in my life... i fix my eyes on e textbk n nowhere else, trying 2 force my brain 2 take in e words n understand dem... occasionally i drifted off to other thots n den back again... i flip thru e pages fervernantly tinking "aiya tis 1 i sumhow now 1 la..." same time so afraid of flunking it, but i can no longer push my brain 2 take in wat i dun understand... mayb if i realli flunked, it could b an indication from God that tis is not for me... bcos i juz haf 2 believe tt everytink will b iz bez arrangement from God to me... or mayb, i juz din work hard enuff... i do pray God sees me thru tis as all is not set yet, therefore uncertainties of e future still exist... still, i'm afraid... my faith is still not strong enuff...
Monday, February 11, 2008
Cny is barely over n tinks have alreadi start lining themselves up n not waiting for my consent of whether r they allowed 2 jump into my schedule yet, n b4 i knew it, iz all sitting nicely in their little square boxes of e monthly planner, in my mind... dere realli isnt much i can do 2 dem... all i can do is look to e nxt line of square boxes (e next wk) n c if i can fit anytink of my own in... iz realli scary how tinks r 4 me... wen i'm free i'm REALLI free (it explains how come i'm so much in love wif L)n wen i knew e holiday season is almost over, everytink comes flooding in, packed so tightly... m i complaining?? i shld explain abit bout my cny... contrastingly, they were aimless, hopeless, dreamless, laziness, idleness, sluggishness... all e ness ness ness... v relaxing thou, but onli, i'm not v sure whether i like it... makes me lethargic, slow n of course not 2 say, stupid... i practically wasnt tinking at all... tt's definitely not gd for a tinker like me... i juz laze ard (in msia), gamble (=X), watch tv/dvd, eat alot, juz waiting 4 time 2 pass... mayb tis would b a gd break IF i had been v busy during beginning of e yr, but after leaving OC, got nuthin 2 do at all (except spring cleaning, but all e dust n webs r back now, i juz realise, wats e point???)... n since iz approaching cny, everytink is on a hiatus, until, now lo... or mayb i expect too much... but nuthin goes according 2 wat i wan... nuthin at all... mayb iz e bez arrangement from God... it has 2 b... i shldnt complain too much...
well spring cleaning sure has taught me sumtink... while i was about 2 start mopping e floor, i drag e wet mop all e way 2 where i wanna start n behind me, e mop leaves a wet trail, n den wen i was deciding whether shld i start on e left or right 1st, i stepped on e wet part of e floor where e wet trail is n i slipped... well most pple (i tink) shld hold onto e mop tight n try 2 prevent demselves from falling, which was wat i did... but i realise e more i try 2 prevent myself falling, e more pain i feel on my spine n legs as they were sorta like twisted at odd angles 2 prevent e fall, n den i decided mayb i shld juz let go n let myself fall since i haven fell since... i was young?? i hardly lose my balance... n den i juz fell... weird tink iz it wasnt painful anywhere at all... n dad came out 2 c wats e noise n i start laughing at my own clumsiness for a long time b4 i get up... i tink tis has taught me sumtink useful... wen u r suppose 2 fall, if holding on is painful n difficult, well den juz fall... God will make sure iz alrite since iz destined u shld fall... n mayb falling will be beta den holding on... here i'm talking about failures in life... thou i'm not v sure will i b able 2 do e same as i said... after falling, mayb we muz realli laugh at ourselves rather den cry bcos of e fall, n tell ourselves, iz alrite, n we stand up again, feeling much beta, bcos after laughing will definitely feel beta den after crying... i'm sure... if others r laughing at u, den laugh tgt wif dem... iz quite a gd feeling actually... not sure if every1 agrees wif tis, but anyways, iz juz my little thot n mayb we can learn sumtink from it... 2 get a beta view on tis, go n try 2 fall down urself... mayb u will learn more... ;P
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Some random thoughts here... would u eva sacrifice ur fren's future for ur own benefit no matter they're ur bez frenz or juz a gd fren?? No, would be e model ans... but iz realli surprising how some pple can juz do tinks like that whether they themselves r aware that they're subconsciously "ruining" ur future (ok i noe tt's quite a harsh way 2 put it) or not... next question would be "how serious is e matter? how big is e benefit??" as i said, it is pple's future we're talking about here... benefit will onli last 2 yrs...
once again, disappointed... but i will try not 2 tink about it... cos in e end, thank God i made e right choice...
Monday, January 28, 2008
Check tis out, my result for a deathnote character...
if u wanna take e test too...
http://main.deathgod.org/quiz/death-note-character-test
And share ur results wif me can??? share in tag...
i cant believe i m L... haha... tt's weird... i took e test in another site n my result is Ryuk... anyway, both r my favs, so no matters... heh... yea u could say i'm crazy, crazy over deathnote, crazy over L and Near... cos i juz finish e whole series of e anime ma! n iz an excellent 1 i shld say, highly recommended... go watch go watch...
oh i tink i'm gg crazy... everyday i wake up, i tink, n tink n tink n tink... about L... and nuthin else... i cant help it... i dun wanna study 4 my upcoming test n do all rubbish tt's gotta do wif deathnote, n of course, online shopping n selling... tink i'm possessed... sum1 get red chopsticks pls... haiz, juz my excuse 4 being a USELESS BUM!! slap me awake, anyone~~~
Monday, November 26, 2007
Grumblings
i dunoe how shld i start or shld i juz start wif all e grumbling n nitpicks... after so many times of experiences like tis n how could i still b taken aback by selfishness from even ur closest, er... fren at work? colleague? i dunoe wat 2 categorize her under... i nv wanna talk bad about any1, but as u c i'm no saint YET, i'm still v much human made wif flesh n blood, i sumhow need 2 let off sum steam 2 prevent exploding on sumbody 1 day... well 2 protect tis person's identity, i will not mention her name here... cos even if i were 2 put e name here, i suppose no1 noes whose she either...
i've actually been putting up wif her quite abit after my dear sw left... she doesnt talks 2 me at all if we're tgt... i've been observing for wks n probably months... when we meet 2 go off tgt, she nv speaks a single word, she doesnt gif a single smile, not even a brief split second of eye contact... on e contrary, a long face on times... those days i have 2 reassure myself tt she's probably having a hard morning or e likes, cos who doesnt have bad days?? iz juz tt perhaps her's iz juz a lil more... n tt's how i convince myself 2 put tt outta my mind... n den i had 2 put on e frenliest smile as thou i'm in e greatest mood juz 2 get a smile outta her n break e ice... n den comes coversations, tt nv were initiated by her... since e v 1st day wen i knew her, dere wasnt a single time or a single greeting tt was initiated by her... n bcos u c i dun haf gd mood days all e time i get pretty annoyed by it sumtimes... so i'll juz walk on wif her in awkward silences tt i do not want to break, onli hoping tt she will start on sumtink... but tt sumtink nv nv came not matter how long e silence was... n den came sum contents of conversation either face 2 face or email... n she throws me into a state of confusion as 2 whether is she tis or that... iz contradicting but i dun haf e heart 2 expose her... n contradiction sumtimes makes me wonder r those lies or...??? juz 2 show sumtink... i dun wish 2 doubt her words, but for thinkers like me, i usually dun leave contradictions like tt alone unless they r realli difficult... n den dere came incidents wen we get busy wif work... i can onli say i will nv place work in front of frenz(whether they r close or not) wen they need serious help... i m even willing 2 put down my work (as in workplace's work) whether urgent or not, 2 juz purely chat wif dem wen they juz come 2 me, either they want 2 talk or they're juz free or they need 2 ask me tinks... but she wun even spare me a single min of her time when i juz need 2 ask an important simple question wen she's doing any work b it urgent or not... most she would do is look elsewhere wen talking 2 me... n wen we work tgt i had tis feeling she's not willing 2 listen 2 me teach juz cos i'm younger, but she'll have 2 b fierce 2 me while she's teaching me stuff, when i'm perfectly following wat she said n yet she can complain 2 me how mean n impatient lml n ls is treating her... n e biggest prob is tt, she doesnt even sound like a close fren/colleague in e office anymore while we're working tgt... even in emails wen she's informing me work stuff, she had 2 change her font 2 black n block... yes i noe about drawing a line between private n work, but i dun c others doing tis 2 me... n i dun believe private u can b nice n den work u gotta b mean...
n den today iz a big storm out dere n fine tt she's rushing work for lml tt i'm gg out alone... but i din expect a storm like tt in such a short time cos i'm packing food back 2 office, n den i'm stuck at e place where i pack my food n deres no shelter 2 anywhere at all cos iz pretty much a building by itself n i called her in hopes of her coming 2 save me... n here's our conversation over e phone:
me:"hello, u r still in office rushing work huh??"
she:"ya"
me:"oh, wat time r u coming out 2 buy lunch??"
she:"not so soon, i gotta rush work. iz raining outside ar?? u nv bring umbrella??"
me:"er... ya i'm stuck at chinasquare."
and den a long silence... i'm waiting 4 her reply, iz pretty obvious i hope she can come n save me... isnt it?? n again it was me who broke e silence...
me:"oh den nvm nvm i'll find a way back."
n den another long silence...
she:"orh ok..."
n she hangs up...
i was alone, cold, n rather helpless... i noe hw is not in raffles place cos she had 2 go sumwhere 4 meeting, still, i msg her... n even thou she cannot come, she offered alternatives 4 me... she gave me jeremy's no n ask help from him... but in e end he's also stuck sumwhere w/o umbrella... n so i stood dere for like... half an hr, lookin at e rain getting heavier by e min... but i manage 2 run back eventually thou abit wet...
m i realli petty 2 b angry over tis?? but u tink about it... ur closest fren at e place u r working... n she can do tis 2 u?? if she's not tt close mayb i wun b tt disappointed... her work for lml could b so important... i dunoe... ok fine, mayb it is realli so important den me getting soaking drenched dripping wet n catching a cold... or mayb she doesnt noe wat kinda storm is it out dere... or juz mayb her work is realli important tt lml's gonna kill her if she comes out 2 save me for juz 5-10mins... seriously, fine!
bcos i sincerely believe if she could juz explain 2 lml tt i'm stuck in a storm, i'm sooooo sure lml will definitely ask her 2 go... i'm almost 95% sure about tt... lml mite b abit strict about work, but she has a 100% kind n compassionate heart...
well sum of e tinks listed here, i did tell her as well, but her reason/excuse being "i'm so sorry but i'm a zi bi person. how i wish i could b like u, who can smile n talk 2 juz any1." when she fully well noes i'm also once zi bi juz like her... n she gets envy about others while she's totally not doing anytink about it when i gif her chances 2 n again her reason/excuse "sorry but i'm like tt 1"... i do not noe wat 2 say anymore n i hope tis will b e last time i'm complaining about her...
or i shld realli b reflecting on myself for grumbling so much about a person over such petty tinks... ok steam is let out, n so i will learn 2 love her...
Friday, November 02, 2007
Pls DO NOT READ if u r busy... super long post tt mite not interest u at all... read it ONLI if u r super super bo liao wif nuthin 2 do juz like me...
25th Oct 2007 (Thursday)
Offsite trip day 1
Woke up at like 5am 2 get prepared n reach oc building at bout 6.45am... n i was late! lucky they din leave w/o me, cos there're bound 2 b pple who're later... every1 wasnt even lookin slpy at all, on e contrary, happy n excited... ok same here... thou i noe today's schedule's gonna be a super boring 1 n e onli tink i look forward 2 is checking into Hilton Hotel n slping... dun ask me y, i juz look forward 2 slping dere... tt's all... n den we reached oc msia branch at 12.30pm, had lunch dere n den u cant believe it, we had a whole afternoon of meeting about e 2008 workplan n e scope for each team... so many pple presented n we almost died in dere... it was soooo boring, yet we cant slp cos dept head noel was sitting directly opp of us... how 2 slp??? i reminds me of alsagoff's english lessons, where i learnt e skill of slping wif my eyes opened... it lasted for... let me count, 5hrs! (other uncounted hrs r games n break)... u realli cant help it when e whole room is rather dim, e aircon is cold, seats r reasonably comfortable... Plus 1 v imp tink, boring speakers wif boring slides... cant realli blame us... still, we made it thru... n den i muz mention sumtink tt scared e daylights outta me:
i went into e office lift wif noel n i almost died of shock when he asked me "li fei, so u tink dere's enuff for u 2 do now??" damn it! how does he noe my name?? n he noes! he noes i've been slacking alot in office, playing games on comp, hp, crosswords, read newspapers, dozing off, etc etc etc... n he noes my name now... i'm onli a pathetically small fry, how could he noe??? in reply i can onli smile weakly n stick my tongue out n say "err... i tink so..." i'm totally expecting 2 get e sack wen i get back 2 sg...
dinner at a v high class seafood restaurant... lucky they provide veg food... den they started serving red wines n tequila... of course i rejected, i cant hold liquor at all... i dun wanna spout nonsense in from of pple i dunoe well... haha... but was v surprised at bernice, she's more den 50yrs old n den drank 1 glass red wine n 2 glass of tequila, AT 1 GO!! gosh... n still, her face wasnt even red... KS onli had, er 1 glass of dunoe wat, his face was super super red, cos he's v fair n e redness shone thru alot! haha... we had fun talking n laughing at others red in e face... den checked into Hilton at 10plus... pw n me share a room n she inserted e card, she held e door open for me, my jaws totally dropped... i tink i opened my mouth all e way when walkin thru e corridor... i've onli seen such luxurious rooms on pics... ok la abit sua ku, but i realise same goes for every1 at e breakfast e next day n we were discussing about it... 2 single beds but they're larger den e usual 1, a whole view of e whole KL (ok almost) n when i turned 2 look at e bathroom, i dunoe how my jaws dropped even bigger... it is bigger den my own bedroom! n iz soooooo nice... i guess i muz haf almost fainted from e excitement of exploring e room... we took a long time 2 explore (it has nice soft music playing heard from all corners of room n bathroom, big plasma tv in front of beds, small plasma tv in e bathroom beside e sink!) iz totally crazy... too bad iz juz for 1 nite... bed was even more comfy den my own bed at hm n i tink i snored thru e nite... i dun tink i eva stayed at an even more luxurious place den tis b4... =X
26th Oct 2007 (Friday)
Offsite trip day 2
Rise n shine at 4.45am! cos schedule was tight... breakfast at hilton at 6 plus, excellent breakfast i muz say... n off we head for KKB (i dunoe where's tis place either, but in KL, Selangor) for white water rafting!! woohoo... been sooo looking forward 2 tis, nv done tis b4... pw got e same raft as noel den i told her "ho ho now iz ur turn 2 make ur name known 2 him... i'm sure both of e r so gonna bcum bez frenz while on e raft"... i shared raft wif terence, sg, gary(msia oc)... was rather disappointed la cos wasnt v close wif dem... but still, they were nice n down we go, straight into e raft wif peddle n helmets n life jacks... we look silly, but every1's e same... haha... den off we go sailing down e river wif e dense forest all along e river... many v big rocks in mid of river causing rapids n wen passing a rapid, it was almost like taking a roller coaster ride... thrilling n exciting... e 1st rapid did scare me cos of e strong gush of e water everywhere n we're like almost plunging straight into it... i was so forcing myself not 2 fall into e water at e rapids, which happens often... i'm so scared of e water... lucky for me, i onli slipped in e raft, but terence fell into e water twice... phew, not me... pw n hw fall in twice also... they were e heros wif 1 of e highest record of falling into water... n e 1 who saved pw up was actually noel! haha... ok la he's actually a nice person... in summary, e water rafting was super fun n when we were nearing e end wif no more rapids, we r allowed 2 go into e river n juz float down it... i went down along wif pple from other rafts, i enjoyed it wif abito fear cos i was floating alone n others were either far in front or behind... still it was fun, n tt's where i get a bad sunburn on my face n arms... =P oh i'm starting 2 love my colleagues more n more...
n den a grp of us youngsters split from dem n begin our offsite part 2 (strictly for below 30 onli... haha...) while e others end e offsite n return 2 sg... took a bus up 2 genting, 7 of us: me,pw,hw,michelle,sean,zhixing,jeremy... checked in 1st world (totally cannot b compared wif hilton) n den dinner n den casino... it was quite a bad 1st experience, lost 10 bucks at jackpot n den no $$ 2 play others which u gotta change at least 50 bucks of chips... n den e place was so polluted by cig smoke n v rude pple who juz push u outta e way n not saying sorry n did it on purpose... u could probably find e world's worst pple dere... since i'm not playing, i juz stood 2 watch n iz getting boring... sean, zhixing n mich played (e 3 PhDs! can u believe it??) n zhixing was so funny lo... he played 10 bucks by 10 bucks slowly, n den mich say he v coward or sumtink like tt, he got angry n threw $150 down all at once betting on only 1 particular bet (bet on many n chances of winning r higher) n lost it all at 1 go... haha... he so cute lor n still can laugh about it... they rich la... n den e other 4 of us was so bored we splitted n went for archery instead... wasnt tt fun... den we went starbucks for coffee b chatted till about 1am... oh forgot 2 mention, when jeremy went toilet n came 2 find us (he was alone), an uncle appraoch him n ask "hey mister, do u wan girls" in chi... he was so scared he practically ran off, his excuse for doing tt "i scared e uncle will start touching me, cos guys like 2 touch me, i was touched by 90% of e guys in office readi leh... n i scared later suddenly got girls pounce on me..." we almost fall off our chair at tt... tt was so funny... haha... n we (mainly jeremy) talked about relationships of girls n guys n we thot he could totally write a bk about it readi... still, it was entertaining i muz say...
27th Oct 2007 (Saturday)
Offsite trip day 3
we woke early n had breakfast n we talked n realise mich, sean n zx were all PhD holders... n they're so young n they're all from china! oh gosh, my legs felt rather weak upon hearing tt (they werent showing off, juz chatting)... if they nv mentioned, no1 would eva noe, judging from e way they mingle wif us n talking so much crap n senseless stuff wif no airs at all (sg phd holders were more...er..u noe wat la huh...) tt makes me e youngest wif e lowest qualification yet i was e 1 leading e grp ard all e time cos genting is my territory u c, i noe e way well (tt's possibly e onli tink i'm gd for)... haha... they all gotta call me lao da... ok we had quite abit of fun at e theme park n we had 2 drag hw, mich n zx up 2 take e roller coaster tt turns u upside down 2 rounds... mich was squeezing zx's wrist so hard i tink it looked a lil purple when we got down, n e pic of her on e ride was so funny wif 1 hand holding zx's wrist, another onto e side grill n closing her eyes screaming her head off... after tt they got scared of other rides n go back 2 casino... n den we went 2 try e space shot next (1 tt u sit on it n it shoots u high up n bring u down fast again, which leaves ur heart still up in e sky) n we all had 2 drag hw in... she was so scared... but wen u r young tt time dun try, old readi wanna try also cannot readi... so muz try! n den she sat beside jeremy... when it went up n hung at e highest point for a minute, she sceam n scream, when it came down, she went all quiet n den jeremy thot sumtink happened 2 her n faster turned 2 look, she juz got tis v stunned look... but she was ok when iz over... no puking, no nuthin... great... we had quite sum fun playing n taking pics... but since we're leaving at 330pm, we had 2 go off early, but still we took quite alotta rides since it wasnt exactly sch hols yet so no long queues... took a coach back 2 sg n reach bout 11 plus pm...
tis offsite trip is probably my 1st trip 2 go play wif other pple outta sg w/o my parents... it was so much fun but too bad, fun tinks usually dun last long... thou iz a mere 3 days, iz probably e bez memory i had while in oc... zx was actually asking wanna go macau or HK tgt play again not (gamble more likely!)... but juz a wkend mite not b enuff for HK, so they suggested star cruise... thou i noe cruises aint much fun but iz not e place u go 2, iz e pple u go wif... i tell him if they did org another 1, i'll definitely go, even macau... cos i like dem =)) they're more fun den dey always looked... tis made me more reluctant 2 leave oc now tt my contract coming 2 an end soon... =( i love dem more n more...
