* I've found e brightness,iz always wif me... *

My BeSt FrEn & I... We knew each other since we were only 3-4 yrs old n often met each other when our parents met up as they were gd frenz. nv had we made an effort 2 even say a "hi" 2 each other, much less 2 start a conversation. tis situation continued 4 many yrs till we grew up... In secondary sch, i then realised that we were in e same tuition class n we were of e same age. But still, we didnt speak 2 each other... Finally after 1 lesson, i initiated a "bye" 2 her n since then, we started talking. Every single lesson on sunday morning, i would disturb her while she's doing her homework but she nv got angry... We eventually became best frenz n i wun go 2 any youth group activities without her. We even talked over e phone sumtimes n encourages me 2 believe n trust in God... then i still wasnt firm in believing this kinda things . Slowly, i realise where i should really belong n that God is really there 4 me alwaz... I went 2 almost all e youth group activities with her n somehow, we began resembling one another, which i feel we dont becoz she's really beautiful inside out. Upon comparation, we were miles apart... Maybe iz juz our hair n height that made us look alike. People mistook us for sisters or twin sisters n sum even ridiculously called me her name n her mine... I was wondering aloud how could we look so alike in other's eyes when we were like heaven n hell as my sister alwaz said... In my eyes she'll alwaz b e perfect girl with e perfect smile, the perfect face alwaz kind n eager, the perfect sparkling eyes that makes any heart melt, the perfect hair which alwaz falls n curls in e right places, the perfect heart that loves everyone and the perfect attitude towards every single thing... I've nv seen any girl so perfect in my life before n of course, this made any girl who knew this jealous of her... Though jealous as i m, i still love her n deep down, she's already my best fren. I think at a certain period of time, she regards me as her best fren too. Though outside, we dont seem to have much 2 talk bout, i've prized her beyond any kind of gd frenz i ever had in my heart... She sent me this particular msg 2 me on 14th of Aug 2003 n it goes like this "i HaVe LeArNt ThAt My BeSt Fr3n N i CaN dO aNyThInG oR nTh bUt E b3sT tImE. FrIeNdShIp iS a SpEcIaL pLaCe. Im GlAd We R tHeRe! Take care my dear fren =) " She said "My best fren and i"! I realli appreciate that and kept that msg in my inbox till now. I dont think i'll eva delete it. Last yr, my mum's fren told me she'll be transferred to another group n we cant be together any longer... I'm juz so sad upon hearing this. She told me "Nevermind, we can still see each other during youth group activities." Yeah i thought so too... This yr, she finally left for another group n somehow, I felt tuition class werent e same anymore without her. We still see each other once in a while in youth group but we were not that close anymore, we dont have much 2 tell each other anymore, we dont really resemble each other anymore, we werent mistook as sisters anymore and worst of all, i feel that i wasnt her best fren anymore, or nv had we been? i dont know... Recently we met again at a youth group activity n we didnt even spoke to each other. Not even a "hi" or "bye", not even a smile... Has time n distance pulled us that far apart n has everything become what we were like in e beginning? Inside me now, i feel so sorry for what our frenship seems to have become, so helpless bout it... I really missed her n i really want to tell her "Dont leave me alone..."

# posted by icyash | 12:10 PM