* I've found e brightness,iz always wif me... *

i dunoe wats wrong wif me today, whether i'm too alone today? SW nv come n take my mind off tinks? i've too much time 2 myself 2 tink alot during work? (which mite not b a bad tink though) i dunoe wat, but my tears were trigger off too often...

i miss hm v much cos iz been sooo long since i've stayed at hm for a full proper nite, which means gg hm straight after work... i miss mum n dad cos when i go 2 work, dey're slping, i come back, dey're gg 2 slp... i miss watching tv, iz been so long since i've watch a full episode of any show... i miss staying at hm, juz plain staying hm 2 relax or b busy at hm... i miss so much so much... n iz onli 2 wks... yea tt goes 2 show how much i love simple stuff like these...

my final breakdown came juz now when dad msg me tt he has transferred $$ to me, plus 100 more than i asked for... i said i'm onli borrowing... n i've onli asked last nite for e $$, i get it today, n onli previous nite i've juz been mean 2 him juz cos he asked me 2 lock e windows, which i ALWAYS do... i was so tired n my mood follows suit n so i retorted... immediately after tt of course my conscience pricked alot, n it pricked hard...

no use now, all i can do is nv do tt again no matter how bad a mood i m in... realli crying hard now in office praying no1 notice n pretending i had a cold... i juz couldnt hold back these tears... i muz keep e record tt no1 has seen me realli cry all these years... gosh i wonder is tis wat u call pms... but anyways, i hate it...

plus side of starting work is that i've learnt to treasure my food more... i eat up all my green leafy veggies in my bowl... i thank God tt food 4 me here is convenient n dere's even a wide variety... ok i shall stop crying n eat sum van houton's raisin chocolates... all these r e bez arrangement from God... Gan En Gan En...

# posted by icyash | 3:44 PM | 0 comments