* I've found e brightness,iz always wif me... *

been sooo busy wif so much tinks gg on 4 past few wks and even more to come this week... although i'm alreadi so tired out, i still am able to do everything properly n alertly, which, is definitely not my own energy n strength... thank God... learned alot, experienced a little, many thoughts, and each single 1 only makes me believe even more that it is e right way i'm taking... thou obstacles appears impossible to overcome, with absolute faith, u will be amazed u actually worry about useless things too much... as the quote says "Nature does not rush, yet everything is done." something that seems so messy, so difficult, iz a miracle how after awhile, it actually can all fall into place that nicely... although things haven exactly falls in nicely enuff for me YET, but still, it certainly looks like everything's gonna b fine after all... n i haven exactly done anything to make it that way... that's how we must believe in God that it will indeed be the bez arrangement God can gif us...

and recently i feel i'm dealing with things that's too big for me, ok mayb not deal, but did, responsible for... wateva u call it... which is like things i've nv even dreamt that i'll able 2 do it 1 day... and of course, with the grace of God, i'm given e chance to try, to experience, to learn... in the beginning, i'm definitely afraid when comes, i'm afraid i mite mess it up... but i've learnt that i must know it is not wif my own ability to do sumthing for myself... which i must not have myself in mind at all... probably wat pple call selfless... forgotten yourself and just do wats suppose 2 b done... and it will b done... sad 2 say i haven attained that yet, so therefore, for now, i still have a little self satisfaction... and also mayb it is becos of this, e thing is not perfected yet... and i probably cared too much "oh i'm onli a small fry, can i realli do..." which is i m still remembering myself... i hope 1 day i will b able 2 attain e selflessness mentioned, and keep in mind that it is e work of God, not mine...

still most imptly i must gx TESD, i m where i am today... n of course e best way to repay it back, is 2 keep going on no matter how difficult n lonely iz gonna b, and strongly believe that, yes, this IS the path i will take for my entire life... gan en gan en...

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