* I've found e brightness,iz always wif me... *

there r many tinks going on for e past week, too many tinks to mention, dont tink i can finish all at once... but now, some how i have this strong feeling, at e age of 20, how could some1 still be so childish and foolish? or mayb not foolish... every reaction i wanted, happened... every move and reply, anticipated... yea i marvel at myself for that too... clever girl, but i looked too highly on how this particular move will be reacted... i always think pple could take my straightforwardness, having come to this age, people would take it maturely and accept... sometimes i feel great if people would just tell me wat i did wrong... when u grow up, u find lesser n lesser pple telling u u shldnt do this n that, it is wrong... it is realli a pity if no1 in this world would eva tell u that anymore, it is pitiful... then i realise, i cant expect every grown up to tink e way i do, not every1 shares e same perception as me... now now, i do feel myself as being selfish becos i always thought what i tink would be, would be...

and it is sad, when i wanna look for someone i could share and discuss wif, i couldnt find one, not a single one... those who are in e loop, are not there, those not in e loop, are there... but u cant expect me 2 suddenly tell them certain things, it is confusing n difficult, and sometimes, people will always b people, who would wear a certain shade of glasses to look at u, in a different way... it is just sad, but i'm still glad i can look to God... i have sinned a great sin, or is it not?

# posted by icyash | 11:23 PM | 0 comments