* I've found e brightness,iz always wif me... *

You give me hopes, encouragement, care, concern, everything that is needed for me 2 move forward and face obstacles. juz by reading them lits me up and warms my heart. it doesnt seem particularly extraordinary 2 u, it does alot to me. and wen all are hopeful and happy, you push me right off the cliff leaving me to bleed to death where my heart almost stop beating just because you thought it is realli ok to do so. i seem like another joke 2 u. i worked hard and had how many late night slps juz to do all that plus doing that e whole day at work, in front of all colleagues and managers and channel heads, risking my job just to complete it, all i get is "u r a mess"... n expectedly to pick up my own "messes" without any help, also putting up with my usual happi n cheery front with a smile saying iz all my fault, wen on e other side, i'm facing much stress from zero sales and bottom sales of every month, as well as juggling with, well, the usual. i had 2 choose 2 do all that cos iz either i do e least or e most, i choose e latter. u probably do nt know, thinking i'm gg slacking off shopping again. because i dun tink u need 2 know all of that n u do nt let me know urs either. u juz assumes. n i thot, i could trust u 2 b a gd fren, n wen tt happens, i haf hopes, bt nv fulfilled, bcos all i get is disappointment all over. it juz seems so insignificant, n on e surface, it all looks nuthin at all, bt deep inside, i tell u, i'm hurt... realli hurt... n all i look forward is onli a gd frenship... anw iz all gonna b over soon, n i dun tink dere's eva a need 4 me 2 face u again... n now i can onli say 2 u,
Goodbye.
*silent tears*

# posted by icyash | 11:05 PM | 0 comments